It just makes me sad and stronger at the same time.
I keep falling deeper and deeper into the darkness…
Looking at the light through many possibilities.
I’m burning with passion.
The stronger the challenges awaits me.
The stronger I’ll grow.
Life is getting harder and harder everyday on the outside world whearea’s in the army things are just stale and stagnant.
Isn’t life about making friends, enjoying the company and adding value into each others memories?
Isn’t life about learning and studying, doing the things we like and settling down with a stable career and a nice warm family?
Well… troubles, every encounters (: some sadness some happiness. Some tears behind smiles and more..
Tick Tok. hello hello.
Times have changed.. since fuji ice days, I used to listen to jay chou songs on the jukebox or my own mp3 player while ice skating.
Used to be filled with the wrong kind of emotions, really deeply moved by different music. When I’m in church singing praises I feel a sudden surge of positive energy filling up my soul and it feels as though I’m a different person.
Up to now I’m still making small silly mistakes here and there and I just laugh at how silly I can be and know that perhaps I should stop looking for the answers for now.
When I read a verse concerning “the fear of the lord is the beginning of knowledge”, sometimes I think of eternity VS life on earth and the question most unbeliever always have is.
What is heaven?
One more day till I get my next posting (:
I’ve accomplished most of the task I wanted to do for my block leave.
Met up with a few of my loved ones and talk about the usual stuff based on individual people I’ve met.
Went to M’sia with rocky,xin yan and eugene yesterday.
Managed to ice skate on Monday and Tuesday, I’ll be ice skating on Saturday again.
Gonna go dance today and read more books about marketing in the library as well.
Getting new Mini-HDMI cables for my TV and gonna practice my guitar <3
Spring cleaning has never been this fun before.
Three more days to my graduation parade from tekong. It’s gonna be my last book in today (:
Met my bestie’s yesterday night and lepak at chloe’s house, it felt as if two months just passed damnn quickly.
Memories that were crafted into my mind in my BMT life.

(01/02/12)
While I’m getting used to army life, I’m also missing out a lot of things as a civilian. Sometimes I just wished I could forge all my deep passionate feelings into a bottle and keep it in my drawer and only draw these energy when I’m out of camp.
The world I’m dreaming never seemed to blurred. Looking closer at the people that revolves around me. I really thank them to be part of my life.
While everyone’s into relationship and stuff, I’m just looking forward to make a little change in my life each and everyday. I want to be a better person, drawing myself closer to god and also to be a useful person (:
With so many rival’s ahead in my life that don’t even seem to give a shit about what I do. I just smile and remember the old days when I was secondary 3, it feels as if life has just started all over again.
Though I’m often reminded that I’m not 15 anymore but 22 this year. Through all adversities, I’ll keep on moving.
It’s 2nd of March today and my bunk mates are getting their A level results today, we’ve also got to book in at 7.30pm today.
There will be field camp for me tomorrow till 8 of march and this will be one tough week ahead especially since we are one of the best company’s in BMT, the training will be an eye opener.
I just realized that 1/2 my BMT is already over once field camp ends. Only left with range (grenades and guns) and also the games day.
I really really miss skating and dancing a lot. I can’t wait for Jcube to open and also I really hope that I’ll be able to get into a vocation that isn’t in the combat field.
My life seem to have been revolving too much into some sort of an intoxicated feeling not being able to be physically doing something but mentally yeah.
I’m a natural daydreamer after all (:
I wanna do great things in time to come this year.